Recently I've been dealt with a great loss of health, and I am overwhelmingly surrounded by love, kindness and the generosity of some really great friends. BUT then, out of the ashes I can really start to see certain people lurking in the shadows, backstabbers, liars, cheaters.
It surprises me how often I look back at certain situations and think, Really? Which team are you rooting for? Mostly we’re adults, so why can’t we act that way? Sure, being a kid is all shits and giggles, but as adults – hell, lets be crazy and have ice cream for dinner! We finally have control of our lives, our bodies, our souls! Then Why do adults constantly need to play these games with each other?
One of the most valuable lessons that this whole situation has taught me is to to keep your eye on the road, please only those who you need to please to get ahead in life, and the fuck with all the rest of you. I mean, in the nicest way possible, Im not out to make you happy and you’re either with me, or against me.
It’s been a personal struggle, to let go of those who have held me underneath the water and let those in who help lift me to the surface. I'm making changes in my life, and if you do not hear from me, You were one of them. Say what you need to say, be who you need to be.
It surprises me how often I look back at certain situations and think, Really? Which team are you rooting for? Mostly we’re adults, so why can’t we act that way? Sure, being a kid is all shits and giggles, but as adults – hell, lets be crazy and have ice cream for dinner! We finally have control of our lives, our bodies, our souls! Then Why do adults constantly need to play these games with each other?
One of the most valuable lessons that this whole situation has taught me is to to keep your eye on the road, please only those who you need to please to get ahead in life, and the fuck with all the rest of you. I mean, in the nicest way possible, Im not out to make you happy and you’re either with me, or against me.
It’s been a personal struggle, to let go of those who have held me underneath the water and let those in who help lift me to the surface. I'm making changes in my life, and if you do not hear from me, You were one of them. Say what you need to say, be who you need to be.
I think this should be a well-known growing pain. I remember having to do it and it tortured me. Occasionally, I have to re-evaluate and go back to doing it for awhile but it's way easier after the first "cleansing". Tom was really struggling with toxic people when we first met and it was so weird to be so close to someone going through it for the first time since I had done it. Anyway, most normal life crises are developmental and listed as such and then there are whole books about them. Not so much on how to get rid of bad people and still be the nice person you thought you were.
ReplyDeleteI am proud of you and everyday I admire your strength.